BUZZ
Last night I heard a buzz
In my head
A hum, deep and resonant
Like music
Like waves
Like the wings on a hummingbird
A whirring
Like the motion of not moving
Or the restless linger of sitting still
Of trying to listen
Of trying to hear
The sound of not thinking
I heard a buzz
And rather than analyze
Rather than question
Rather than concoct or consider or fear
The likelihood of brain cancer
I let it ride
As
if I were a gentle blue whale
Moving through the ocean of myself
As if I were a bird
Flying too close to my own ear
As if I were human
Feeling, just feeling,
The sound.
Last night I heard a buzz
In my head
A tickly invitation
To swim free of past and future
To fly high within the here and now
To get lost in the wideness of this moment
Judging nothing
Wishing nothing
Missing nothing
Holding onto nothing
But the generosity
Of that hum